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I miss having someone to talk to 24/7. Someone I can talk to about the most nonsensical things. I miss knowing someone genuinely cares. I miss someone knowing every single little detail about me. I miss being able to call someone hysterically crying and not being judged, but to be told that everything is going to be okay. I miss laughing about stupid things. I miss being able to be my complete self around someone. I miss being loved. I miss loving. I miss wanting to know everything about someone, and getting so excited on the rare occasion I found out something new. I miss pet names. I miss sharing my entire life with someone. I miss the other half of my heart that isn’t coming back any time soon.

Dear, Girl That Is Reading This

Dear girl that is reading this,

I know you love him. I know it’s hard to watch him walk by you like he doesn’t care. You see his updates and you just want to comment on it and tell him he’s a jerk. He does things to get to you. He posts things that will get to you. He knows your every move and he can predict you like he’s turning the page in his favorite book. But listen, you don’t need someone that treats you like trash. You don’t need someone that checks out the girl walking past you while holding your hand. You deserve the best. I don’t know what the best is exactly but I know it isn’t what you’re getting. So you keep your head up beautiful. You’re gorgeous every time you walk past him and don’t even look at his direction. Don’t pay attention to him. He doesn’t deserve it.

YOU are beautiful. You are unique. You are loved by many. You may not think so, but somewhere out there someone is envying you. Whether it’s your confidence, your hair, your sense of humor, your body, your clothes, your good character. Somebody looks up to you. Don’t you ever think you’re not worth it, and don’t ever think some guy is worth your tears. It’s hard being a girl. We fall hard, for the ones that are hard to get over. We’re called names, pushed around, and hurt a lot. But I want every girl to feel like they matter. To know they’re beautiful and that’s something no one else can take away. Always be you no matter what. You bring something special to the world. Each and every one of you. Without us, the world would be such a less glamorous place. So, to add a little cliche…always shine bright like a diamond :)

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I’m sick of girls who only care about guys looks. It's so conceded. It’s their personality that makes them unique, that makes them relateable. It’s the little things they do, their quirks that make them so hard to forget. Quit complaining you’re alone when you’re looking for the perfect guy. He doesn’t exist. Insecurities and flaws are part of why we love them. You’re not perfect either girls so don’t expect guys to be.

Lagi-Lagi Awkward

Kemarin gue nonton sendirian (lagi), film Jack Reacher. Eh, kenapa emang kalo nonton sendiri? >:( Enggak menyedihkan kan? Enggak dong, biasa aja kan ya? :) *menghibur diri* HAHAHAHA ga lah, emang biasa aja. Gue udah memulai kebiasaan ini sejak SMA, ke mall sendirian, nonton sendirian, sampe pernah ketemu mantan gue berkali-kali, dia nonton sama ceweknya dan gue sendirian.... Berdiri ngantri sendirian ngeliatin sambil ditiup hembusan angin, AH tragis banget lah itu pokoknya. Peristiwa paling tragisnya itu letaknya sebenernya pas dia nanya "Eh Sel, sendirian aja?" Dan gue kayak............ LO GAK PUNYA MATA, MENURUT LOOOO???? Tapi akhirnya gue jawab, "Eh enggak, sama temen gue. Tapi lagi di toilet hehe." Terpaksa boong supaya enggak terlihat menyedihkan, eh terus ternyata gue satu studio sama dia...... Ha ha ha ha ketauan, dan terjemahkan sendiri gimana ya rasanya. Sampe pernah juga satu studio isinya couple semua, terus gue duduk dipojokan sendiri, semua sebelah gue couple gandeng-gandengan, buseeettttt rasanya pengen gue teriakin satu bioskop, "Gak usah norak deh, gandeng-gandengan segala. Helloooww kita lagi nonton kali bukan lagi nyebrang!" Tapi, gue sadar itu bakal bikin gue makin keliatan menyedihkan, jadi gue urungkan niat itu :ǀ Oke balik lagi ke cerita pertama, gue kan nonton Jack Reacher sendirian, gue pilih lah seat favorit gue 'F16' jadi itu letaknya di bagian tengah tapi paling pinggir kiri, spot ter-enak buat nonton, ga jauh dan ga terlalu deket juga ke layar. Terus, ternyata eh ternyata sebelah gue ada bapak-bapak gitu, umurnya 40-something, pake batik, nonton sendirian (juga). Mana pas itu lampu studio nya masih nyala terang, dan banyak yang jalan ngelewatin kita berdua, sambil ngeliatin aneh! Dikiranya gue selir-selir si om itu kali ckck. Serius itu pengen gue colok-colokin pake garpu matanya -__- Lalu, dimulailah percakapan awkward antara gue dan si bapak itu....

Bapak itu : "Kamu nonton sendiri aja?", sambil ngeluarin Galaxy Note gitu pamer.. *eh, enggak pamer juga sih, emang gue aja yang sensi kali ya abis udah males duluan ditanya om-om HAHAHA*

Gue : "Oh, iya pak.", gue ngangguk sopan.

Bapak itu : "Duh jangan pak, om aja," terus senyum centil, gue ngeliatin speechless 5 detik, abis itu pura-pura sibuk sendiri di bb, padahal jelas-jelas bb gue SOS ga dapet signal hahahaha.

Karena dia enggak mau dipanggil 'bapak itu', kita ganti jadi 'om itu'....

Om itu : "Kok sendiri aja? Ga nonton sama temen atau pacar kamu?"

Gue : "Enggak pak, eh om. Tadi abis dari kampus langsung ke mall."

Om itu : "Oh masih kuliah. Umur berapa? 19 ya?"

Gue : "20 om." Gue males tapi masih gue jawab aja ya itu orang, salah siapa sih kalo begini sebenernya? :ǀ

Om itu : "Emm.. 20 ya, udah mateng lah umur segitu," terus dia ngangguk-ngangguk sambil senyum-senyum. APA BANGET SIH INI ORANG???? Dikira gue sayur kali, mateng -__- Gue ngeliatin dia speechless lagi 7 detikan.

Gue : "He eh. Ini kok film lama banget ya mulainya," mengalihkan pembicaraan, juga karena proyektornya mati, ada kali 5 menitan itu proyektor enggak nyala, padahal udah selesai iklan-iklan segala macemnya.

Om itu : "Iya, problem mungkin proyektornya. Eh kamu mau popcorn? Saya beli nih kalo mau," sambil siap-siap berdiri.

Gue : "Eh ga usah pak, eh om. Saya kenyang."

Om itu : "Yaudah. Oh ya, nomer kamu berapa? Asik juga ngobrol sama kamu." CETAR MEMBAHANAAA.. AHA! Gue tau nih sekarang kenapa dia ngeluarin HP-nya dari awal CKCKCK. Tiba-tiba layar proyektor nyala dan lampu studio meredup. Thank God, akhirnya bisa nonton dan ga perlu ngomong sama si 'om itu'.

Gue : "Eh udah mau mulai om filmnya," kata gue cepat sambil ngebenerin posisi duduk gue jadi tegak dan agak ke pojok kiri, biar jauhan sama si bapak-bapak itu.

Dengan telah dimulainya film itu, berakhirlah percakapan gue dan si 'om itu'.

Begitu ceritanya saudara-saudari sekalian. Jadi, inti dari blog gue hari ini adalah, moment awkward bisa terjadi dimana saja, dan selalu bisa jadi inspirasi untuk menulis :) (HAHAHA agak maksa sih intinya, tapi yaudahlah yaaa..) Have a good good night!